Mar 26, 2010

I did at least one thing right..

See?


Many things have changed since my uncomplicated delivery of this little girl. I've watched as her chicky-fuzz hair slowly grew into blonde ringlets (while mine traveled the rainbow at the speed of my whim). She has helped me to find the mother inside myself and nurture her as well.
 I know how lucky I am to have one perfectly healthy, beautiful child, and I've learned not to take that for granted. It's amazing to me that she's already eight years old, as of last Sunday. I feel like I was a baby myself when I had her. I was so naive. I would never have believed that I would go on to lose her sister, and that I would have to explain to my five year old why she would never get to see her baby sister alive. It still breaks my heart, but I know that without her, I wouldn't have had such a strong will to survive after Zoe died. Ivy saved me in a way.
She's been waiting to be a big sister for a healthy sibling for a long time. I hope that in just a couple of weeks, she gets that. She deserves it after all...

7 comments:

angie said...

I think that about Bea all the time too. Ivy is just gorgeous, Lindsay, and eight--HOLY COW! You are getting there, mama. Sending you much love and calm in these last weeks. xo

margaret said...

Happy Birthday to sweet Ivy, what a gorgeous baby she was! Lindsay I have faith that you'll make it hun, I really do. Keeping all my fingers and toes crossed for you guys. Love you girl!

Hope's Mama said...

Happy birthday to your big baby girl.
xo

Lindsay said...

I love you guys. Angie, Margaret, Sally.. I am so lucky to have you in my life for as long as I have. Thank you..xoxo

myskytimes said...

The best Happy-Birthday-wishes to Ivy!

Love the pictures and those gorgeous golden locks... You are a wonderful mum to her, its clearly visible in every single picture.

Sending my love! xoxo

Jennifer Ross said...

Beautiful pictures Lindsay.

Nice post, full of truth.

mrajotte said...

Beautiful photos, Lindsay. Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you as you get so close - hang in there.