Feb 27, 2009

Yesterday...

I went barefoot all day...
I loved on my Lucy...
We played soccer (or football if you like)...
..and she liked getting it in the ditch...
She loves to play with her mum...

This is Zoe-Beth's rose tree...
First leaves of the year...

I hope this spring, brings life to me as well...

Heavenly Father,
Thank you so much for the peace you surrounded me with yesterday morning. I could feel you in the breeze and in all the new life outside. Thank you that Zoe's rose tree rooted well and is sprouting leaves. Please renew my spirit as well this Spring. Help me to feel close, and a part of ALL the new life beginning to surround me. Love Me


Well, I hope everyone has a great morning today. I'm off to buy some flower bulbs. I think Zoe should have lilies in her garden.

Lindsay

Feb 26, 2009

Today...

I will breathe deeply. I will be quiet and find peace. I'll look between the blades of grass and up into the sky. The sky is God's personal canvas and I am always so amazed. I will wear my long paisley skirt, and forget my shoes, like I used to. I will be kind. I will water and talk to all my plants. I will throw the ball to Lucy and Otis, and watch them play. I will kiss my kitties on their noses and whisper 'I love you'. I will dance when no one's watching and keep a song on my lips. I will listen for God's gentle whisper. I will not analyze, I will not question. I will welcome the breeze on my face, and feel it through my hair. I will smile and laugh. I will rest, and not worry. Today, I just have to be who God made me...free.

Feb 19, 2009

Hi/Lo Thursday's

This is a part of the Riggs family blog, and I posted my link, so here I go! Be sure to check out their blog as well and pray for Abby. Abby is theur adopted daughter from Guatemala and she is in chemo for a VERY aggressive form of luekemia. That girl is so precious. I will post a list of the blogs I follow (when I figure out how) and you can go from there.
My 'high' was being led and able to pray for others this week. I felt so spiritually detatched lately, but I still felt led to pray. I met a sweet new babylost mommy (Ruth) who is struggling with the intense grief that accompanies losing our precious children. I shudder to think of the new mom's joining this 'club' every day. I pray for peace, I pray for healing.
When I am led to pray in this way, I am reminded that no matter how I feel, God is still using me for His glory, even if it is to utter a tiny prayer amidst all the noise.

My 'low' for this week would have definately been when the main pipe of my house busted. I was in the bath, and it was cloudy outside. I closed my eyes and listened to the rain. I finally decided to get out, and when I tried to brush my teeth, there was no water. No rain either, just a front yard that looked more like a lake, and me naked and helpless. I had no water till the next afternoon, when K sent a plumber over to fix it.
All better now!

Feb 18, 2009

Teensy-Tiny Update!

#1) I have not forgotten to post pics of Zoe's things and the hope-chest K made. I just have a crummy digital camera at the moment, and I'm waiting to borrow one. Below are pictures of it's construction...




Isn't my baby talented and wonderful!! (Jesus was a carpenter too!)
The contents are coming soon...just wanted you to know I did not forget!

Shingles, diamond rings and V-day...




This post is quite delayed, but I feel it's better late... This has been a wild few weeks indeed, so here is the re-cap and a few photos. I'll throw in some random pics from last week, but only because I'm feeling open today, and why not let you peek a bit further in on my little household! ok?!

I broke out in shingles and my eye was nearly swollen shut. My S.o. and his parents lovingly called me 'Quasimodo' while I helped them clean out his late grandparents house (with one eye I must add...I ran into everything!)


Don't I look GORGEOUS!!! LOL...

In the romance department, things are looking up! About three days before Valentine's day K (I have yet to come up with a pseudo name for him) came over with a vase of roses with one big fake flower. Inside the fake flower was a beautiful diamond ring!!! So, it's officially official, yay!!!


L.O. really loves K...



I feel so blessed in my life right now. God has sent me a Christian man who knows me well and loves me anyway. I have an amazing daughter here on earth and a perfect little blessing waiting for me in Heaven. 'Thank you Father.....'

I wanted to say congrats to Carly on the story done on her beautiful work. You are such an amazing woman!

Feb 1, 2009

I Forgot to Keep Growing!! (reality check of sorts)

I suppose I was unaware of the rut I've been in. I've plateaued, in my grief and in my walk with the Lord. I am numb. Nothing tastes as good as it once did. I find it impossible to be very excited about anything. I am still sad, and I walk through the motions of grief but never allowing myself to fully feel these feelings. It's as if I have encased myself, in a shell, so to speak. I looked out from it today, and realized it was there. I know I sound fruity, but I believe I have been on auto-pilot and totally unaware of it. So, I know that I have a ways to go.
It's time to wake up, learn to fully feel things again, and start growing more. Ok, I had to get that out. Goodnight!