Jan 15, 2010

A little more positive today..

Yesterday was horrible. I just could not imagine that there was a possibility things could be fine in the end with this little one. I was anxious and the words kept buzzing around in my head 'he's measuring two and a half to three weeks too small' over and over.
I went to bed early and slept for twelve hours. When I woke up I had the same phrase buzzing around and I didn't know what to do with myself.
I got dressed and went to do a few errands and thought..a lot.
This child is going to live or he isn't. I know I'm not immune to having this happen twice. Worrying won't secure a future for this little one but it can drive me insane and keep me stressed. I don't want that.
I've decided to just decide that what will be will be. I may change my mind at my appointment on Tuesday, as I want so badly for this to be a miscalculation by the doctor.
I'm trying to lean on your comments and just hope for the best. Dr. could have been off or the boy could be just little or he may catch up in the next twelve weeks. At this point nothing is set in stone..yet.

7 comments:

angie said...

Oh, Linds, just catching up on some reading. I don't know how I missed your post. Just sending you much love and all the prayers I can muster. xO

Bree said...

What a great attitude. I'm really struggling being pregnant again. I'm worried constantly about things that I really have no control over, either. I'm going to be channeling you and trying to abide by this as well. Were here for you.

margaret said...

Lindsay I am hoping with everything I have that things will turn out just fine for your boy. Don't forget to ask about the baby aspirin. Sending you hugs

myskytimes said...

Oh, you sound so much better today! That's exactly the right attitude (even though it's not so easy to muster). Hoping and wishing all will be well. Crossing my fingers (and holding my thumps - as we say around here) for your appointment next week. Sending a big hug! xxx

Catherine W said...

Just hoping that everything is going to be fine Lindsay. xo

Lareina said...

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers... I hope that your little boy is just fine and it was just a mistake on their part... big hugz!

Anonymous said...

I have been following you since that whole April Rose fiasco. I really want to encourage you now - please try to stay as positive as you can. I understand how you must be feeling. There could be several answers to this. Hopefully, your pregnancy is miscalculated and you aren't as far along as you guys thought. The fact that everything is developing as it should is a very good thing, right? Please keep that in your thoughts and keep your chin up. You owe that to YOURSELF first. Plus - there are people out here holding you up as best as we can.