Mar 7, 2009

Woes in 'Little Hollywood'....

K and his'third eye'

I'm kind of nervous...I had no idea that I would be!
I've known for about a month, that a big movie was coming and that it would require K to be out of town. At first it was supposed to be six it's more like three months.
There are a few reasons I'm nervous about his semi-lengthy absence. I have three dogs, all large breeds, and their food is SO heavy from the store and to the bowls. K has been the 'Dog Feeder' for about a year now.
I go to him, when I'm nervous, scared, want to know what my hair looks like in the back, when I'm tired and need a little help with L.O, etc. He turns the aquarium bulbs off, if I fall asleep on the couch and forget.
Twelve hours of light, twelve hours of darkness....
I love him and I don't want him to go. I KNOW he needs to make the money, but the movie industry is SO unpredictable and six weeks can (and just did) turn from six-weeks to three plus months..or more. (I'll let you guys in on the name of the movie when I have 'permission', I could get him in alot of trouble if I blabbed now. I may have to tell you his name, just so you can watch for it in the credits, cause I know when I tell you what movie he's building, you'll go right out and watch it like I do, Right??!)
I know I seem like a little brat, whining about what I want but I'm only nervous. I know there will be some good things with this.
I'll have a good excuse for traveling alone (don't worry, L.O. goes to visit her father eight days of every month...of course she would be well taken care of!)to visit on K's few days off. The rest of the time, I will stay with my BEST friend in the whole world that lives in New Orleans! I haven't seen her since New Year's, and I miss her. I'll probably get to go 'on set' a few times and possibly see/meet some celebrities. I've met quite a few and it's always so interesting how normal they are....usually (ask me about Demi one
BUT... I will be alone...a lot!! Time to work on my products for my soon-to-be Etsy sight...details later :)
I have no fear of sleeping alone, but during the day, I need a 'pep-talk' at least once. I never realized how much he does to lift me up, every day. He reminds me of who I am and helps me to tap into my own strength. He loves me unconditionally and fully, and always wants the best for me, above his own good. He reminds me of Jesus, and His love for all of us. I know K has to do this, so that one day, when he fully joins L.O. and I as a family, he can provide for us financially.
I know God sent me my K and I will forever praise Him for it. I thank (that was hard to type) Him for this opportunity for K. It has helped me to see why God put him in my life in the first place. I know HE wanted me to be with someone who reminded me of God's love for me. Now He wants me to lean on Him, and I understand and accept that. Thank you for your many blessings Lord!!
Now, the easy part is over and the hard part starts Monday night.
Sorry it's been so long since my last post. L.O. is getting over the flu, my room mate has been 'booted', for lack of a better word, and I've been catching up on every one's new posts. I'm sorry if I didn't have time for a comment, but know that I've read every one of your words, and have prayed for all who have asked for prayer, and a few that haven't :)
Have a blessed weekend!